Wednesday, August 17, 2011

my notebook is filled with parts of things i see, hear, read, etc that i like and want to remember (purposefully trying to avoid analysis or personal synthesis) but i think general emo-ness still dominates the curating: Do you think my Reptilian existence doesn't make my heart weep?

SYMMETRY

have been reading Crime and Punishment the past few weeks like I have a deadline, knowing that if I put it down I will never pick it up again (for it is so heavy!) and i do not want the first 300 pages of weight to have been in vain.
but
i had forgotten how literature alongside real life has SUCH FUN with synchronizations!
how odd to come across this: "Talking nonsense is the sole privilege mankind possesses over the other organisms. It's by talking nonsense that one gets to the truth! I talk nonsense, therefore I'm human"


Saturday, July 9, 2011

HEY JIBBERISH
I'M STARTING TO LIKE YOU BETTER AS I GET TO KNOW YOU
as i get to know you, the more i like you the more the merrier
I HAVE REALIZED MY NEED TO LET SYNESTHESIA GO. GO WHERE, RED? OH CHUCKLE JUST A LITTLE INSIDE SYNESTHESIA JOKE. BUT WAIT GO IS GREEN AND STOP IT IS NOT A REAL TERM OUT THEE WINDOW
DOWN DEE DRAIN WITH DIGNITY LIKE A SMALL WHITE FEATHER AFLUTTER FLOATING SLOWLY... PRECIOUSLY DOWN TOWARDS THE PARK BENCH DURING THOSE OPENING CREDITS in a vaguely referential jump: I GET ANGRY EVERYTIME I SEE A ZOLTAR MACHINE IT WAS REAL THOSE ARE NOT.
in other blues: my most anxious days have involved my brain finding a correlation between real time interaction and any song i have ever known. it is hard to respond when i am not really listening BUT THE PATTERNS FEEL SO GOOD
i never loved cage's The Future of Music: Credo it annoyed me
the type print annoyed me
jibberish i thank you oh you,
liz

p.s. you at first remind me of haberdashery, one of the first words that ever tickled my fancy (how can you forget the first time you enjoy a word!) but you changed me. look at you! what buoyancy the jowls of the spitting british man saying 'rubbish' without the scorn but more subdued and honestly, less annoying than 'jubilant'( of course i must admit i love you mainly because you are a bitter attempt at replacing synesthesia) than it is you have so many exclamation points without even trying!!!